Tears of the Trufflepig
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Aug 9-Fog

9780374719999 fc
Hardcover, MCD × FSG, 2019
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Kathryn Scanlan

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A stark, elegiac account of unexpected pleasures and the progress of seasons

Fifteen years ago, Kathryn Scanlan found a stranger’s five-year diary at an estate auction in a small town in Illinois. The owner of the diary was eighty-six years old when she began recording the details of her life in the small book, a gift from her daughter and son-in-law. The diary was falling apart—water-stained and illegible in places—but magnetic to Scanlan nonetheless.

After reading and rereading the diary, studying and dissecting it, for the next fifteen years she played with the sentences that caught her attention, cutting, editing, arranging, and rearranging them into the composition that became Aug 9—Fog (she chose the title from a note that was tucked into the diary). “Sure grand out,” the diarist writes. “That puzzle a humdinger,” she says, followed by, “A letter from Lloyd saying John died the 16th.” An entire state of mourning reveals itself in “2 canned hams.” The result of Scanlan’s collaging is an utterly compelling, deeply moving meditation on life and death.

In Aug 9—Fog, Scanlan’s spare, minimalist approach has a maximal emotional effect, remaining with the reader long after the book ends. It is an unclassifiable work from a visionary young writer and artist—a singular portrait of a life revealed by revision and restraint.

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An excerpt from Aug 9-Fog

A Note

The text that follows is drawn from a stranger’s diary. I acquired the diary fifteen years ago, at a public estate auction. It was among the unsold items. I removed it from a box on its way to the garbage. It looks like garbage—I am surprised it made it to the auction house at all.

It is a small book, approximately the size of my hand, an inch and a quarter thick. The pages have detached from the spine and sit in a solid chunk. The binding is cracked and bandaged with brittle tape.

The diary was at some point submerged, or leaked on—the ink on the bottom third of almost every page has bled (blue, very pretty) and is mostly undecipherable. Front and back covers are pitted with mildew and dirt. The strap that fitted into a brass lock on the front is gone, but the key is sealed in a tiny envelope and tucked inside.

Whenever I handle it, some bits crumble onto my desk.

The diary was a Christmas present to the author from her daughter and son-in-law. The author wrote her full name and address on the front page. She resided in a small Illinois town. She was eighty-six years old when she began recording in it.

The diary chronicles the years 1968 through 1972. Each page is a calendar day, divided into five sections—one for that date for each of the five years. A contemporary vendor of this type of diary claims the format allows you to “travel forward and back in time.”

At first I loved only the physicality of the diary—the author’s cramped hand, the awkward, artful way she filled the page. I liked its miserable condition. Its position was tenuous—yet here it was. I didn’t try to read it. I kept it in a drawer. I assumed it illegible.

But then I did read it—compulsively. I hunched over it, straining my neck. I read it front to back—perhaps a dozen times by now.

As I read, I typed out the sentences that caught my attention. Then, for ten years, off and on, I played with the sentences I’d pulled. I edited, arranged, and rearranged them into the composition you find here.

At this point—as you might expect—the diarist’s voice, her particular use of language, is firmly, intractably lodged in my head. Often I say to myself—“some hot nite” or “flowers coming fast” or “grass sure growing” or “everything loose is traveling.”

In fact, I have possessed this work so thoroughly that the diarist has ceased to be an entirely unique, autonomous other to me. I don’t picture her. I am her.

The diary has become something like kin—a relation who is also me, myself. I have at times been exasperated with it. I have wondered why I continue to return to it—year after year, draft after draft. Why does it compel me so? Isn’t it terribly banal?

Is it like a game I come back to because I’ve not mastered it?

Is it some kind of sacred text—meant for me alone?

Has it trained me—this inexhaustible textbook—how to choose, contort, order, and cut?

It still moves me, which seems unbelievable.


Happy New Year. Brr. Brr. Brr.   Al-

vira a cold. Harold sleep. Few snow 

flakes in eve. Emma didn’t get home.

Clear nice winter day not doing much 

today. Little squirrel came this A.M. 

and he sure likes cornbread. Had let-

ter from Bertha she better and con-

tented out there.

I painting. Clouding at noon.

Looking at old books of the church 

that Martha gave us & pictures, alone 

all day. Clarence over to see 

Bayard—he living in the past, other 

wise he pretty good.

I fixing dark striped dress of Maude’s. 

Maude ate good breakfast, oatmeal, 

poached eggs, little sau-sage. Maude 

ate her dinner pretty good. A letter 

from Lloyd saying John died the 16th.

27 at noon. 32 at 4. 4 below in nite. 

Little skift in nite. In eve we sorted 

them and put in boxes ready to go.

Fine snow rabbit got away. I took pic-

tures of the frost   ever where beauti-


My stomach & bowels not too good 

in nite. I feel some better this A.M. 

Didn’t find anything wrong with 


No one to church. All home today. D. 

washing feathers in her pillows.

Sure pretty out. Sure grand out. D. 

making a new piecrust. All better.

Big snow flakes like little parasols 

upside down. Ella had Widow’s Club 

to dinner, a delicious fried chicken 

dinner at Holiday Inn. D. & I out to 

cemetery little bit.

Bucky came kiddys sick. Maude feel-

ing just fair. Ruth real good. 2 mother 

red birds here this A.M.   Retirement 

party, they gave her a beautiful clock. 

So snowy & bad he came back. Beau-

tiful big red sun dog on the North. D. 

played her Victrola. Vern working on 

Doris cupboards.

In P.M. to Burg got my slips. Roads 

sloppy white rims on trees. That puz-

zle a humdinger.

Anna Ruth & Bonny came, staid & 

we had oysters. Pictures. Ruth will 

have to have the circle tomorrow. 

Emma not bit good. They are going to 

decide this P.M. what to do. 

Ever where slick. Another beautiful 

white frost A.M.     eyes got the glimmer.

D. frying chicken. Ice on bird bath. D. 

& Vern’s anniversary, they got each 

other beautiful sweaters. This grand 

day     my feet tingle.

Finished     jig-saw—Niagara      Falls. 

Very pretty, hard one.

Diary 59 rs

"Travel forward and back in time"

Text by Kathryn Scanlan

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